(Okay this post really isn't really about Astrophysics, I just couldn't figure a good title for this post.)
Here is what it's really about.
What do you do when you like someone a lot and you over time get the feeling that they don't really like you? I have a feeling that someone I really like and admire, for some reason doesn't really like me. I feel like she only tolerates me because we travel in the same circles.
I've gone out of may way on several occasions to let her know that I think she is a really great person. And I do think she's a great person.
So does she think of me as a sycophant?
Recently I noticed that she has embraced certain people who I am close to but she still makes it clear in a very subtle way that she doesn't want to embrace me in that same way.
So I'm sad and hurt. I've invested a lot of time in the relationship, such as it is, and feel cheated. Yesterday I came to the conclusion that I should simply back off.
I feel like I have been pushing myself on her and that's a terrible feeling.
I really hate how I'm feeling. On the one hand I feel childish. I feel childish because I feel jealous. I feel as though this person has gotten close to a few people that I may have introduced her to and now I'm being shunned.
Anyway I needed to vent. I needed to say something about this because it is really bothering me.
Thanks for listening.
Do you think I'm being stupid and childish? Should I talk to her about this or just back-off?